Disorientation taking over ...

Well, after a long jamming session for the college Annual Day, now coming back to reality feels like a tight slap on the face. I completely lost track of what was going on in college and the real reason why we come to college. Today, after about 20 days, i sat on that fateful place where i used to sit daily and listen to classes. Felt like a different dream, sitting there today. The lecturers asking for assignments and tests as if nothing ever happened. And the looks on Natarajan's and my faces were blank and bloodless. We came to know of many things today.. and also realised how close the damn exams are. The internals from 4th, and externals from 30th. There's exactly one month from today, and that is serious bad news.

Other than the disorientation, there were other things which midly cheered me up. First thing, i sat with my true friends after a long time, chatting and joking, felt good. Not that i didn't make good friends while practising for the programme.. And one silly incident was, when i and natarajan stood by the plane made by our seniors, out of nowhere, the Principal showed up, and started bombarding us. Damn it, we were kinda stuck. He demanded when we are gonna make a model of a plane. "This time, it must fly. It must take off automatically, and fly and then land automatically. You must only control by remote". If we could make an unmanned aerial vehicle succesfully fly, (a plane of such size !!), then i think we could easily have gone up the ranks long back. We just made up our minds not to take part in any kinda activities, and our princi is expecting us to do this... god help us.... anyway, i would love to be a part of such a project, provided it doesn't disturb the main things that are to be done in college...

And finally, the soccer match. It was bad, really bad. People might have enjoyed. But from my side, i only saw the ball streaking past the keeper into my own goal. Chakradhar was badly out of form, and he missed chances from 1-2 yards out !!!! That's bad even for a grandmother... I was kinda isolated with gowtham and natarajan helping me very less. Felt really sick, seeing the ball fly into the goal everytime the opponents got it. Was kinda relieved when Srikar stepped in, managed to make some movement alongside him, but my fatigue took the better of me and forced me to cut down. Though yaseen was hurt, i couldn't chase and tackle him, felt lost and unskilled....

Ok, one more novel comes to an end ... more things to go .. the plans for tomorrow's mass bunk, and the so called let's-study-today determination...

It's a once in an year show !!!!

Ok, there was lots of hype about this day, The Annual Day of MRCET. The preparations were intensive, and the arrangements were pretty much large scale ... and finally, the day we were waiting for loomed ahead. I got really nervous about the whole program. We had 2 songs ready to be played, but we were given more time.. so we practised 4-5 more songs and got ready. But by the time the show was ready, we were again cut down to 2 songs, (read, "lack of management"). The sound check was in vain, after an hour of checking we were asked to move off the stage and perform later. And then it started. I stepped out for a few minutes and by the time i was back, the princi's speech was underway. As always it was boring and filled with humourless, impractical, monotonous phrases. Some other guys were also boring but there was one man who really lightened the moods, and that was Mr MallaReddy. Kinda surprising to see him so enthusiastic. He had the humour, the variations and the words to catch people... one bitter humiliation is, the princi called out the winners of various competitions and the guys were marked with a Mr. and the girls were marked with Mrs. !!! .. shocking stuff really! People would have been wondering where the hell this guy learnt English ...

That was when i noticed that there were hardly any chairs to sit on. During the whole program, i sat on the chair for about 45 sec.. immediately after the speeches, the refreshments came, but we never even saw what was given to the people, we were busy on our sound checks again. The night's DJ Shweth kinda got restless seeing the acoustic guitar. He was not ready to place a mic in front of the guitar. It's true that there will be a booming noise, but if it is kept far enough, nothing will happen... but he was very cautious about his JBL equipment and his reputation for noiseless, and flawless music. Sadly, our equipment was pretty much the opposite. The acoustic's pickup was bad (evidently), and my guitar was too old and the Zoom 505II wsa also having backgrund noise. We needed many mics for the drums and other stuff, and that delayed it more. Somehow, time was rumming fast and we were not yet moving ahead. Finally, when everything was set, we kicked off, and before i could open my eyes again, it was over !! We play 2 songs and our outro and it went dreamlike.. we never knew when it started and when it ended. Once off the stage, life was back to normal. I heard we got pretty good applause. I dont know about that, coz my ears were blocked out, numb...

And then came the rest of the performances.. in all of them, i felt my frnd Sandeep Singh did a better job than the rest, though there were impressive performances by others as well. Overall, the whole thing took place better. We had no glitches atleast. Last time, there were fights and brawls and stuff, this time, it was less..

As for the DJ, ok, but i always expect more from these guys. They say they are DJ's but they hardly play around with the disks. They just fade one song into the other, that's all. I feel they must actually edit the song, add their stuff, mix tracks, hundred's of things to do.. but he was ok. Took enough care of our instrument sounds atleast ....

Ok, this is turning out to be a real long post. The pics might come later, but for now, its the end of the novel...

Things not goin good ....

Well, today has turned out to be quite a day of twists... though the thing is good news, it's negative at this point of time coz, it's kinda late now ....

Well, as a start, we were told that we could perform only 1 song, we dragged it to 2 songs and practised only on those. And today, just 48 hours before Jugdement Day, we are given a whole hour of time to keep the stage... what the hell do we do on stage ... not pros to keep the audience held.. we can play only what we practiced, as simple as that. I don't know why people think so much in theory. That there's one hour, much to do in that time. Man i can't .... though i can proudly say that i can easily catch up with any song if i get wind of the chords or whatever ...

anyway, i am really tired and i think i will think about this later .....

Eddie, but odd ...

Well, don't think too much about the title i have given... it's kinda meaningless, trying to accentuate my feelings about today ...

Well, it's been odd, i have been sitting on the system for the whole day now, and all i did was, check a great song by Iron Maiden and i tried playing it, not on my guitar, but rather on FL studio. I made a small sample of the song on FL, and you can hear out the song here ... mind you, it's pure digital... and cancels out the misconception of Iron Maiden being satanic ...




As for the other things today, i managed to perfect myself in the lead solo part of School Of Rock which we are supposed to play on our Annual Day (damn it, it's been forwarded to 28th from 30th !!!) ... whatever it is, i got less problems here, coz, i always do my homework when it comes to music.. forget about the studies, i am late by weeks sometimes .... ok .. enjoy the song ........

Don't know where i am ...

Boring time going on right now.. i never get tried of playing my guitar but once i reach college, the atmosphere there really makes me say, "dude i got no mood" .... don't know why, but from the past few days, though the songs are coming out good, i am not finding it as exciting as it used to be. Maybe because i am bored of playing the same songs or maybe because they are not the songs i would like to play ... whatever it is, i am becoming a sort of a mechanical robot, playing the stuff from some kinda programmed microchip which is sending the signals to my hands... my mind is not on that and i have no idea how my hands are able to do it without my brain's involvement ..... lot's of conflicts about the songs we are playing and i don't wanna involve myself in that...

anyway, there'll be more to tell soon, till then, i'll give a rest to my hands which have already taken beatings from that great electrosurge and also my rough and sharp guitar strings ..

New at last ...

Well, i took lots of time, but finally made this so called jukebox on the blog. It's kinda boring to choose only from 4 songs, but that took half my day out (with lots of breaks ofcourse). But check out the songs, really cool... especially Iron Maiden, my new craze. Warning: Low quality sounds, 16KBps, mono. And, the usual stuff going on, gave a break to ambigrams, i'll go back soon. Fine, right now, i got nothing to say other than, "Man, India went to West Indies to do what??? lose to bangladesh ????" Sounds really sick.. and some time ago, i saw this really fat guy from Bermuda making an awesome dive and sending home some new player .. not sure about his name (something with "U") .. and they celebrated just like how you see a football team celebrating a Champions League Victory... looked good.

Ok, i'll give the break, hear the songs and lose yourself ... i am lost.

Iron Maiden in b'lore ... what am i doing here ???

Well, a day of good and bad all mixed up. Bad news first, coz it's bad news to most of the unfortunate people, people living in India... Forget the fact that there's some damn cricket match (i heard it's the World Cup.. is it ??) ... the fact that really kills me is that i am missing Iron Maiden's Indian Tour. They are performing live in Bangalore today, and i am coolly missing it. I really started to like Iron Maiden after hearing those harmony leads and fast paced metal.. "what you play, i play 5 frets up" ...



I am really jealous of some of my frnds who have gone all the way to B'lore to see that.

And now, the good things. First, i got to see a metallica concert today on TV. I don't yet know where they performed that but i am sure it was in 2006 ending or 2007. Nice performance, but i don't know why James Hetfield tries experimenting with his voice even till today. It's like, they take themselves granted for being famous and whatever they do, people are gonna like it. And it's true.. i heard Kirk Hammett messing up with one of the leads in Sanitarium and still it was ok. Anyway, i missed the first 3 songs because of this college stuff, but i saw the rest, they played Sad But True, Frantic, Fuel and Sanitarium. I wish i could have seen more..

the second good thing is, i got thru that damn exam finally (mechanics of fluids). it was really surprising that i couldn't get thru in the first attempt, but now, it's done. Cleared of all charges .... but oh god.. i love iron maiden .....

Asymmetrically symmetric

Well, i am still lost in Ambigrams and Invigrams ... and i am trying something which i cannot do, but still, i managed to make something here. Hope it looks atleast distantly familiar if not close...



I am working on them, maybe soon, i will get to make some real good ones. I am still trying to make something look more exact and ending up making it look more distant....

This world is symmetric !!!

That's what is great about Dan Brown's books. They open you up to this new different world where you see extraordinary things and yet they seem so well blended with the natural world. The creativity really brings you out of yourself...

First, i was really amazed by his research in Deception Point, about the Mach 6 planes running on Hydrogen and all the techy stuff ... then, i read Da Vinci Code and was amazed by his understanding and analysis of history though i am sure most of it is controversial. And then i read Angels and Demons and found more interesting things called Ambigrams. You read them straight or upside down, they look the same. That's what suddenly changed my viewpoint. This whole world is symmetric. Everything is right there in front of you, if you only open your eyes to it. It makes you feel electrically charged when you think of something like this. And i was really after ambigrams and with some difficulty, i just managed this...



This is the ambigram of my name "Rajasekhar". I hope it looks like my name. I am sure i can never make something as good as those words - "Earth", "Air", "Fire", Water" and "Illuminati"... they are a bit too perfect. But i'll try getting as close as i can. I think there are a few blogs showing this.... one is Nagfa.

I'll post more of this stuff ... keep looking!!

Birthdays all over me ...

This has been a kinda funny week .. almost everyday i was reminded of a birthday. Amidst all the music and noise, i had to keep track of all the birthdays of ma friends. I was reminded of b'days on 4,8,9,10,11,15,16,17,18,30 .. maybe even a few more might come unexpectedly. Though i wouldn't like to give the names of the people, i wish them all a Happy Birthday at once...

Coming to the other point, i have managed to make my Title animation look like an equalizer bar. It took about 5 min of thinking and 26Kb of space. That's all and there's the output. I hope it looks good... signing off ...

As messy as it gets ...

Oh god, today was one of the messiest days of my life. Nothing went right the way i wanted. Though the morning session was kinda funny, me reaching college at 8am and still doing nothing. And then, the damn lab internal. Did it kinda ok though...

I was waiting to meet up with the "music freaks" of MRCET, and i thought it's gonna be constructive, but it was damn destructive. Forget about thinkin of a good song to play, we actually didn't play any song properly. We were there for many hours, and brought out nothing. I was missing my Zoom 505, and ran to the class to get it, but the great lecturer (my maths lecturer), behaved astonishingly stupid. i just said i needed some things from ma bag and he replied something funny .... no idea what it was. My ears were completely blocked up, out of the awkward position i was stuck in. But the worst thing i heard was, all guys of my class were laughing along with him. I understood he spat out something stupid about me or my deeds.. utterly humiliated, i just left, showing my anger on the wall as i left. Don't think he noticed though ..... and i don't care .......

Music was bad after that. No zoom, no effects, no beauty in the notes, no mood, no interest ... all interlinked. But still, we managed to play some music afterall, but too many guys in and out spoilt it completely. I am kinda disappointed with the goings on. We were supposed to finalise a song today, but we didn't. That's bad coz, there are hardly any days left.

fine, more updates to come ...

thru thick and thin ...

well, coming back after a long time... can't believe this is the first posting in March ..

Anyway, first things first, delighted, i finally got to see a full fledged band in fron' of me eyes .... and being a part of it is one more of those things i always cherish .. that's all that's been going on this week.. not to mention those sickly lab internals. I actually feel a bit guilty .. the EEE lab internal was sooo bad, i was like literally getting help from a friend across the bench inspite of the teacher trying to stop him. I hate this cheating business and i wished i was never born .. that teacher was fortunately kind enough to show a blind eye to that, though she saw everythng.. i apologised to her, don't know why !! just the earlier day, i came out of her class saying i had to go for the music practice.. life's bad sometimes ...

Anyway, music always removes all other thoughts and i survive purely on that ... hoping to post soon ..